My Thoughts on Rappers of Today, or music in general.

I am sick and tired of hearing music that all has the same concept and same type of rhythm.
Really and truly,
I hate hip-hop 2009, it's not the same anymore, everything is commercial shit.
What happened to the days where music actually made sense,
and actually contained REAL words, not words made up just so the ending of the bar rhymes with the previous.
I miss the days when Nas was performin' "Wun Love" and When Wu-tang was heavy in the game.
To me that's real hiphop...
I mean Hip Hop is part of history.
I feel it shouldn't be made into something that people do just to make money,
and now a days thats why a lot of people go into the rap game...for the money.
Not because they honestly, and truly love music and have a passion for it.
If rappers/singers of today actually had a real passion, then their names would be big... and unforgetable.
Micheal Jackson for example... (Rest in Peace)
He not only made very good music, but has influenced many people in the music industry.
That's the impact every artist should have.
Nas, Wu-tang, B.i.g, Tupac and more.. (basically old school rappers)
have made an impact on every rapper out there.
I personally, Do not like rappers like Gucci Mane, Or Soulja Boy or Lil' Wayne.
Because to me, their shit either a) don't make any sense b) is only made for ->> $$$$$$
If I can't sit down and say you know what, this is some REAL SPIT, then I don't wanna hear it.
People make music, to express their feelings, or to explain a story, or to talk about what they been thro.
If I don't feel a personal connection with the artist and the song, Then... I don't feel moved to listen to the artist... or to even continue to play the track...
Personally I feel that hip hop of today is made a mockey, and isn't done the right way.
Which is sad.
I refuse to take in anything from 09 at the moment, because it makes me mad listening to it.
I think rappers, singers, song-writers should step their game up.
Hopefully going into 2010, it gets better, and improoves..,instead of getting worse.

So I have a burnt Kitchen.

So my uncle was smoking a phat head in the kitchen.
And then felt the need to take a shit.
Without turning down the stove,
(mind you he was cooking plaintain, which means a pot of oil was going)
and this is the result after leaving for 2 minutes.

Tired of the bullshit.

TOP 5 rules for EVERY female or MALE out there who has ever loved somebody who doesnt seem to love them in return.

1) NEVER MAKE SOMEBODY A PRIORITY IN YOUR LIFE, IF THEY DO NOT PUT YOU AS A PRIORITY IN THEIRS.

2) NEVER HAVE HIGH EXPECTATIONS, BECAUSE YOU WILL REMAIN DISSAPOINTED.

3) ALWAYS GO WITH YOUR GUTT FEELINGS, BECAUSE IF YOU FEEL HE/SHE DOESN'T LOVE YOU, THEN THAT MEANS THEY REALLY DON'T LOVE YOU. BECAUSE IF A PERSON " LOVES " YOU, THEY CANNOT EVER MAKE YOU UNHAPPY, EVER*

4) NEVER FEEL AFRAID TO ERASE THE PROBLEM, LESS STRESS, BETTER HEALTH, BETTER HEALTH? LONGER LIFE, LONGER LIFE? MORE SUCCESS. GOT IT?

5) IF YOU FEEL THAT THEY AREN'T DOING THEIR BEST, THEN DON'T TRY TO MAKE IT WORK, YOU CANNOT MAKE SOMEBODY LOVE YOU, LIKE CIARA SAID, " IF THAT BOY DON'T LOVE YOU BY NOW, HE AIN NEVER GON' LOVE YOU "

In My World Where Shit Is Real (Previous F.B note)

People now a days need to really sit down and realize how important life is, and to stop playing games.
My Life right now, Is Drama Free.
Why? Because I have learned to read people and erase those who do not* benefit myself.
I done did everything a typical teen would do, smoke weed, scrap bitches, create drama, act hard, fucked niggas, went clubbin 19+ & All Ages, and right now... I'm Retired.

Everything I have to say about any topic, Isn't me talking for ratings.
Because personally I could give 2 flying fucks for ratings.
If a nigga/bitch thinks I'm fake, then shit, mek them stay.
But at the end of the day, I prosper. They Don't.
People who know who I was, and Know what I have become.
Know that my mindstate is completely different from the way it was
a couple of months ago.
The Child I was, Made me into the woman I am today.

I have a reputation of being a " mix up kyattie " ... Okay, When you're 13-15
It's a regular trait... We all go through the stage where we feed and live off of drama.
I have a reputation of being a " hoe " Okay, so I lost my virginity at a young age,
and more times, When you don't know any better you think with your hormones not with your head.
All my wrong actions was something that I did on my own, and they were my wrong actions to learn from. I never asked to be judged or put down, As a matter of fact, I never asked for anyone's oppinion point blank period. But yet, the whole world seems to want to do so right?

But when I sit down and look at myself in the mirror.
I see a strong, young woman.
Who has been there and done that, who is ready to actually live life.
I spit at the girl I used to be, and hail up the woman I am today.

Girls want to talk about they're real and what not.
What is it to be REAL anyway?
I feel that I keep it real 24/7 because right now in my life...
I'm living it for myself, If somebody wants to hate on my decisions that I made for myself,
Then so be it. But personally, Imma do me, whether people like it or not.

I've always had to fight my own battles.
I've always had to pat myself on the back and tell me everything will be ok.
So why the fuck would I give two shits about any body else but myself,
when it's me who provides for myself and keeps myself going.

Anybody that knows me in and out, KNOWS that I am loyal to those that are loyal to me.
I will sacrifice for the ones who showed me nothing but love.
But how the fuck do people expect me to be so real to them when all they did was be fake to me?
Now you want to call me a fake ass bitch because I did you wrong?
But have you ever thought back and evaluate WHY I did you wrong?
Hm.

I'M COLD now, I ain' got no friends, I ain got no man dem, I ain got shit.
But the only thing that I do have is a lot of pride.
I don't let no girl chat down on me, even with a negative past.
Because it's girls like me, that change their fucked up ways to better themselves
that motivate the younger ones to do better.
Especially if they see or hear it from somebody
who actually has experience and somebody who's actually felt the strikes.

Now I ain' sayin' I'm the realest chick out there, But Fuck, Give a girl some credit.
Without me a lot of you hoes wouldnt have anything to talk about right?

My question to girls though, and I really would like an answer.
Why must we bring down the next girl, instead of biggin her up and motivating her to do better
or to fix what she is doing wrong? Every gyal for herself I guess?

We live in a society where there is war everyday, in the streets and in different countries..
We live in a society where people are not accepted for who they are, whether it means race or the type of clothing they decide to put on in the morning.
Haven't you ever thought that your block would be way more stronger if everybody
had each others backs regardless and really and truly looked at each other as famillia?
Because in God's Eyes we are family.

Personally If i see a next chick in the mall, and I see she's doin her thing... Fuck Imma show her,
" You know what, keep duin what you do, Big up urself..." I ain finna stare her down and talk shit wit my bredgins, because that ain' gonna benefit nobody. That Ain' gon make the neighborhood any better either, and if you love your hood, you'd respect it and the people that live in your hood.

But personally, Teenagers of today are influenced by what they're friends tell them, or what they see on TV, rather then actually doing what they know deep down is right, or having their own steelo for once.

And My Question for all the man dem that are reading this righta now...
Why The fuck must you go out there and create problems with other people just so you can show off for a girl or your man dem on your block, if you're a real ass nigga, then theres no need to show people anything, if your a banger, then bang out, if you're bout your money, make that paper, you're a baller? make sure you have on them j's...There is no need to proove yourself to any man on road, any chick on road, actions speak louder than words, if you're a big time hustla, we can see it in the chain you rock and the car you drive, if you're a gangsta ass nigga, the streets talk enough, we dont need you to talk off how hard you is. Right now we have blocks beefing with one another, ain' nothing new, but over what? Is a chain or a couple of hundred dollaz worth any niggas life? And if ANYBODY replys yes to that, then you must think of yourself so little, and have no self-respect, which is something that you must have before you can demand respect from anybody else... We have young reckless niggas holdin' toolys in there pants, hot headed waste mans goin' around robbin mans from their own block, shootin up niggas for some chump change, If it can't copp you a house or a car or something that involves investment, then to me, it is considered chump change. And most of these niggas now a days are holdin down M charges and what not for what? Chump Change. But hey, Chump change for chump ass niggas right?

I don't need a gangsta nigga by my side, I need me a thug nigga. A Thug nigga is a nigga who holds his own as a man, and takes care of buisness when it needs to be done, street smart, o.g stat, been there done that, knows how to treat his other half (his lady)... a gangsta nigga is a nigga who just don't give a fuck, reckless livings with his reckless ways. I need me a thug because I know, I ain' a dumb bitch, I'm mad smart, when I talk I speak fluent english you smell me? I have a lot of experience in this life in multiple situations, I can cook I can clean I make my own money, buy my own clothes, I deserve the best, and that is what I feel every gyal should go for, the best. No struggle no progress right? Half these girls that have progress had shit handed to them on a platter, what struggle? Niggas like me been thro the wire and back, been put down many times... but like I said, Look at me now, Damn fuckin successful, theres not a day where I'm hungry.

And see me, I'm a chick who can provide for myself and my man and my mains... I can keep my head up even when shit is rough, I have lessons for days that I have learned from that I can sit down and tell the next gyal so she doesn't make the same fucked up decisions I did. And I dont do it because I want people to think highly of me, I do it because in my heart, I always want to see a next gyal succeed, because when she does, that gives me a chance to move forward, A bitch coulda done layed down with 100 mans, sell her pussy on these streets and/or do way more fucked up shit... and you would never hear me make her feel any less than I because at the end of the day, she breathes the same air as I do, so if I ain a real chick, I want to know what the fuck is the definition of real? Tell me.

Girls of 2009 (Previous Facebook Note)

What I have noticed with a lot of girls of today, is that a good percentage of them
are relying on something called "Welfare".
Okay, Ain' nothing wrong with collecting your government cheques, but when you become
stable on government cheques, that is when you become LAZY.

In this country, They allow you to do many things with yourself.
Regardless of Recession or not.
You can do as little as going to High School and Getting a Diploma.
Or go as far as Graduating from University with multiple Degrees.
You can think large and start your own business.
A lot of girls in the hood have many talents, I know a lot of you girls
have a friend or two that can weave hair, why not open your own salon?
As woman, we have came a long way to get the respect and the opportunities
to be able to make something of ourselves. So why stop the movement?

If I were a man, I would look for a lady who has ambition.
Not just a pretty face and a good pussy.
I would want a lady that can cook good meals, almost better than my moms.
Clean up after herself till the place is spotless, Has a good job, and has actual education.
Not just a quick course they took just so they have something.
And has NO KIDS.
I wouldn't want a chick that is forever in the hood, On some drama shit, has nothing to claim
for herself but a closet full of stitches gear, that her mom probably provided.

And what bothers me to see... Is that a lot of girls have the babymoms title,
But ain nobody got a ring on their finger... and more times, that shit ain' right.
How often do you hear a man breed up the same girl twice? Hm? I see mans that have 3 different baby moms. What the fuck for? I don't care how good you hold down your yute, there is a reason why a lot of youtes now a days are the way they are, because they didn't have a proper father figure. Broken families dont ever lead to anything good trust me. Niggas need to start wearin jimmys and need to actually think before they go and buss in a girls crotches, because a child, a life, isnt no joke ting. It's a serious matter, Girls need to be more careful before they get themselves knocked up. You know you were not ready for a child if, you haven't finished school, you're still tryna go to every jam that pops off, you still care about the artificial things and the events that don't matter. When you have a child, you're life needs to change. Your whole world is your baby, You should be getting an education so your child can have the finer things in life, You should be working that 9-5 so that you set a good example for your son or daughter, What do you have that your child can actually say you know what, " My mommy is a go-getta.. She has everything she wants the right way, and NOBODY can tell her nothing..." Don't fall into the statistics where girls depend on their baby fathers to make all the money and all they do is collect their baby bonuses and what not. That shit ain' cute. I don't care how many girls want to go against what I'm saying, But Really and TRULY that shit ain' cute.

I think girls of today, Need to start thinking large, and stop thinking about the easier way of surviving. Wouldn't you make yourself happy and your loved ones happy knowing that you actually made it in this life? I mean shit, If you're a hood chick, and a REAL hood chick that has been through the ins and outs, I know seh you don't want to be in the hood for the rest of your life. The whole point in hustlin' , is all part of survival in these streets no? Why do people hustle? To claim that they got money to have people jelly? Naw. I know I hustled because I wanted to get the fuck out the hood, I want to be sitting on stacks yes. Who doesn't. But Selling Dope and Pimpin Bitches ain' gon be everything once you get booked and your ass is in jail. SO be smart, You wanna do the hood thing, do it, But an education is something that every smart nigga would have.

And girls, Stop settling for less. I'm tired of seeing pretty ass girls, with waste ass mans claiming dem. Like I always say, If you know seh you are a "Louis Vuitton" purse, Why Go for A Baby Phat? You feel me? Most of these niggas out here, can't do nothing for you but send on some hard cocky. And personally, Dick is just a muscle. It ain' gonna send me money to pay my rent, It ain gon' keep my stomach from growling... Just because a man has "swagg" and every gyal wants him, and he's some kinda big time hustla on these streets, doesn't mean that he can hold ME down. All the qualities and ambition I have, I want my man to have too, or possibly better. I done been thro waste mans, and I'd be damn stupid to go back to them. And a lot of these girls of today, are damn stupid to keep going back to the same "type" of niggas... Girls always complain that mans are waste and what not, but you wouldn't have to complain if you didn't go and affiliate with a waste man that only wants you for your goodies. Now a days, niggas don't care to wife girls...because girls now a days ain' got nothing that a next girl doesn't have. Just like how there is a population of waste mans and a hand full of real, same goes to the females out here. Everybody always follows a trend, but could never stand out. And Personally, I ain even tryna blend in with these girls out here, I'm tryna stand out and set good examples.

And another thing that bothers me, is when big 20 something year old woman are still on the same old bullshit that they were on back in high school. Like it's the biggest turn off to see a grown ass woman in a mix up situation. It's sad. I see a lot of them spending their rent money on caribbana and tings, and den when the go home dem nuh have nuh milk fi guh feed dem pikney. That shit is weak. Woman need to start putting the important things first, and the party life last.

But overall, I think for 2010, every gyal should have goals set.
And actually Hit them.
I know I set goals for myself and I felt damn good that I succeeded in getting them done.
Stay Focused, and thing big, because when you think big, your bound to go places in life.
And who gives a fuck about what a next gyal has to say, BUN DEM.
No next gyal can do you for YOU, and that is a factor. Mek them say w.e the fuck they want..
Keep ur head up and stay strong. When you let these people put you down and stop you from doing you, that's when you allow your whole future to go downhill as well. Don't let no bitch fuck with your success. NO BITCH, NO NIGGA, NO GRANNY should be able to take away your pride. Always Remember that.

Be Original*

To me originality is something that a lot of people fail to posess. And I feel that it shouldn't be something hard to have because God has made each and every single one of us different.

I hate walking down the street, and a man would try to holla at me, and it would be the same line every other nigga out here has to say... " Hey ma what's goin on, you look sweet " or " Wha gwan mami " or " Pisssssst!!! "Like really now? lol... Whoever responds to the typical nigga, obviously has very low standards.
If a man wants to get my attention on the street, he would have to come at me correct. I don't respond to the typical shout outs, I get it all the time. I mean shoot, I can read niggas like books... I can tell if a nigga wants a future, or if he wants a quick slam. And personally, if dick is all a nigga has to offer me, I don't want it. I got plenty of it back in the days where I didn't have my mind right, and I had my fun, I dont need* to buss a nutt.
I mean shoot, I do what I do, I get my own money, Buy my own clothes, Pay my own bills & I'm mad pretty, The fuck do I need a bumb nigga for? I ain' a single momma, I'm free. Free to do what ever the fuck I want.
I ain' on welly or any type of support for the government, when I say I'm independent, I am i-n-d-e-p-e-n-d-e-n-t, do you know what that meann mayne?  I ain' tryna settle for a nigga who acts just like every other nigga, or talks like any other nigga, I want a man who stands out from the crowd. Has his own steelo has a strong mind. And not only that, but has a high determination to go far in life, not just settle for the little things this life has to offer, I need a go-getta like myself. I need a nigga who has his mind right, School wise & Street Wise, and actually acts MATURE and not imature like these other boys are. I need a MAN who takes care of buisness.. Like I said, I can READ niggas like books, and so far, 80% of the niggas that TRY to holla at me are BUMB NIGGAS.

And then the girls of today, forever copying someone else's swagg. I can't go to american apparel, stitches, h&m and feel good about myself, because I know that's exactly what the next bitch has in her closet. I ain even tryna swagg like a next bitch. Which is why I either a) Get Name Brand or B) Order my shit... str8.
I mean nothing is wrong with shopping at the stores in the mall, but I mean, why does every girl have to rock their clothes the same way? Like, Haven't you noticed as soon as you walk into a club, every girl in the club blends in, in some way shape or form? It's pathetic. And the slang that they use is all the same, the "bad bitch" swagger that girls copy from nicki minaj is starting to get mad plaid out, Because thats exactly what girls of today are tryna paint a picture of. I mean ladies, reality check & be real... How many girls do you know has a mentality similar to your own? Clothes you have in your closet? Do you and your gyal dem LOOK the same?
I mean shoot, the twin effect ain cute unless ya'll really are twins.

I mean shoot, What do we have to offer to the world? Ask yourself what YOU have to offer in this world, or to a man/woman you want, or to the buisness world... If it's something that someone else can offer, then... Your chances of getting what you want, are really low, because people gotta pick from a variety of the same thing.....

Which is why I say, Pussy is JUST pussy, and DICK is just DICK, I can get buddy from anywhere, because theres hundreds of mans that would want me, but the man behind the dick is what I look for. Plain and Simple.

What makes a female, Smaller than the neighbour?

 A lot of girls of today, are quick to recognize another girls flaws, but fail to recognize their own. Why is it that we put down one another, to feel that we are on top? Why can't we just do our thing and hail up the next girl that is doing her thing as well? Woman have came a long way to get the respect and power, so why stop the movement?

 Girls feel just because they have clean histories, or just because they are prettier, or richer, or doesn't have the label to be a hoe, That they are worth more than a girl who is ugly, or poor, or a hoe. Which is the wrong way of thinking. We are all human, We are nobody to judge one another. And if Jesus didn't want us to treat him higher than anyone else, why is it that a regualar bitch on road can feel seh that they can treat girls like dirt because of their history. Every girl is different yes, but in God's eyes, we are nothing. We are his children, we all breathe the same air. Nobody's air is fresher than ours. So why gwan like thats the case? Certain people need reality checks.

 Men are quick to label girls as hoes as well. What really makes a girl a hoe? The fact that she is a brainer? (For those of you who doesn't know what the term brainer means, it is one who performs oral sex). The fact that she decides to please herself more than others? Sex is something that all humans take part in. Wether it is with a friend w. benefits, a boyfriend, a girlfriend, a spouse, or whoever, it is something NATURAL. Originally, sex is something that should only happen with husband and wife to produce. But in 2009. It is something people do either for fun or pleasure.

 When do we know that our limits have been crossed? To me, sex shouldn't have any limits. It's whatever you as a human being feel to do or take part in. If we put limits on sex, how do you expect to enjoy it? It would be the simple, Stick it in, Pull it out, Moan, and Buss a nutt. How fun is that? Now a days, 2 out of 10 woman have experienced an orgasm. Why? Because they put limits on sex. Or simply because men fail to actually care about their partners pleasure. They Just want to cut their nutt and call it a day.

 Many people label girls as "hoes" because the amount of men they have slept with, or the things they do sexually... I mean, Once you did it ONCE, you are going to do it again. And once you did it once, it already is a sin. I'm not saying girls should go around and sex every man, because at the end of the day we should all have standards. But I'm saying, Who gives a F!%k? We all do things because we want to benefit our self. Just like when men get "horny" they want to go out there, find a girl to come suck their dick or have sex with them. Why can't women do the same? Must we be sexist in every single situation? Like let's be grown & real for once....

 Why is it, that men, are allowed to sleep with any girl at any time with how many people, and not be labelled a "man-hoe" ? I do not think it is the right way of thinking. I think it's sexist. Men are just as "nasty" as woman. As a matter of fact, most of them are dogs. Suppose woman had the dicks now, and men had the pussy, would men be the hoes? Think about it, Shit's different because of a genital organ? Doesn't make no sense.

 And why is it that when a man is in a relationship with a girl with a "history" , people always have to try and ruin the relationship and talk shit about the girl to the man. " Oh your wife is a hoe " "I heard some bad stories about your girl..." "I seen this and that..." Like... What do people benefit off of talking shit? You really think that anybody benefits, no. Not only do you look like a bitch nigga or waste gyal for talking shit and GOSSIPPING like a child, but you ruin a relationship for what reason? Jealousy? because to me, that's the only thing I can think of. If you see a man with a girl that you have "heard" of, Let them be, They are together because obviously they like each other, and they are with each other because they want to. Why must we ruin happy homes?

To me, Now a days, people are childish when it comes to the following topics... I just felt like writing about this because it bothered me a bit.